Passionate Kisses

The last couple of days have been interesting to say the least. Right now Reed is feeding Alexis her lunch. Yes, he's still here. He'll be leaving soon and I kind of don't want him to go. It's been really nice having him around and we've actually talked like two grown adults. I know! I was shocked too!

Let's see what happened since Saturday? Well...

When Reed got here Saturday morning as I was typing the last post, I let him in a came back to finish writing. He came over and was all like, 'what are you doing? is that my name? what are you writing about me? I had to think quick so I told him I was writing to my friends, letting them know how my life was going at the moment.

"Did you tell them I'm not a complete dick? That I do care about you and my daughter?" I almost laughed when he asked that.

"Yes," I told him. "They know that you are back and spending time with Alexis."

"I'm a good dad," he said as he went to pick up Alexis, who was being ornery. Reed looked down at her in shock, she didn't want to get up with him. "Well I thought I was a good dad." He tried again but she snuggled into me. I stroked her head as I looked up at Reed, he looked hurt. "Well," he started but he didn't finish, instead he went over to sit on the couch.

After I was done, I glanced over my shoulder at him. He was sitting forward on the couch, with his chin resting on his palm, he looked so sad. I moved Alexis up onto my shoulder so she was looking at him too. "See daddy over there?" I whispered to her. "He's sad cause his little girl doesn't want to get up with him."

Alexis stared at him for a while and then she stretched out over my shoulder, holding out her hand. "Daa daa." Reed quickly looked in our direction at the sound of her voice calling out to him. He smiled a smile that truly reached the depths of his being. When he went to stand up, I shook my head and stood up.

As I made my way over to him, he stood up. When we reached him, he held out his hands to Alexis but she snuggled against me again. "Daa daa daa daa daa," she said against my shoulder.

"I'm right here princess," Reed stroked her back as he spoke to her.

"Daa daa daa." Alexis turned to look at him and held out her hand but when he went to take her up she snuggled back into me again.

"Ok what am I doing wrong?" He asked me.

I shrugged, I didn't trust myself to say anything more than that. He was standing so close, I could tell he showered before he came over. He was still using the same soap and deodorant that he did when we were together. Smelling those scents made me almost forget everything. I had this uncontrollable urge to kiss him. I didn't of course but everything inside me screamed to just do it.

Reed was stroking Alexis' back, whispering softly to her as he tried to convince her to get up with him. "Come on Princess, come up with daddy." Alexis started to whine and chew on her hand. "Lexi tell daddy what's wrong. Are you tired? Hungry? Cranky like mommy?"

"Reed!" I slapped his arm and Alexis just started to cry. "Oh honey, don't cry mommy didn't hurt daddy." She still continued to cry, her little bottom lip was pushed out and the tears were slowly rolling down her cheeks.

"It's ok Alexis, daddy wasn't hurt." Reed tried to hug her but couldn't where she was up in my arms. So he did the best he could, he wrapped his arms around the both of us. "Please stop crying Lexi."

Being in his arms wasn't where I wanted to be, yet I found myself wishing I was closer. I know that doesn't make sense, I want nothing to do with him personally but yet, I was so tempted to lean into his embrace.

"Amber?" I glanced up at Reed, he started to say something when his eyes met mine, his words died.

For the life of me I couldn't break that stare. It wasn't until he lifted his hand to my face, that I realized I was holding a breath. With a tiny smile playing on his lips, he tucked a strand of hair behind my ear. Leaning into me, he kissed my forehead and then turned to kiss Alexis' cheek. The whole time he didn't say a word.

When he kissed Alexis' cheek, she let go of me and reached for him. He mentioned something about maybe taking Alexis for a walk and when I nodded, he got her ready and they left.

I stood standing in that one spot for the longest time. It was only when a knock came on my door that I moved.

I was still a little weird when I opened the door. "Hello Amber," Chris took me in his arms and kissed me with this intense passion that made my toes curl.

We were entwined in each other's arms on the couch, both of us without a shirt on, when Reed let himself in with the key I had lent him.