This Crazy Need To Butt In

It took all day yesterday to recover from the night before. I still can't believe that Devon is really marrying someone as bitchy as Annette. I know he feels he has to to protect his mom but I can't see how it will end up as a good thing. What happens if his mom finds out? Or if he finds out that she already knew what a dog she married? Don't women have some sort of an idea? I know I can sense when things are really right....most times.

Reed and I were sitting together watching TV yesterday when I asked him if there was a chance that Devon wouldn't go through with the wedding and his response shocked me. "Why do you care Amber?" He seemed really irritated.

"I just don't think that it's right that he is doing this, you know that."

"Well he is and there's nothing that will stop him from going through with it."

"But Reed he can't be happy with this, she's such a bitch to him and -"

"There was a time when you could've cared less about what happened to Devon, what's going on Amber?" Reed got off the couch but he didn't walk away, he stood there before me. "Is there something going I should know about?"

"What?" I shook my head and stood up, my eyes not leaving his for a second. "There's nothing going on Reed. I know I haven't always been friendly towards him but it's not like he's been that friendly to me. But now, since I've come back, he's been nicer and I see why you guys are friends."

Reed didn't say anything, I sighed. "Reed," I lifted my hands to his waist. "Honey what's going on? Why aren't you happy that Devon and I are getting along? You used to ask me to try to be nice to him."

"I know!" He groaned. "It's just that you two seem to have this little thing going that doesn't include me. Devon sees you at work, you both talk about each other a lot and it's like...well...I..." he shrugged, giving me a sad smile.

I frowned, "Are you jealous Reed?" I asked slowly because I wasn't sure if I even thought that's what this was about. There's no way he could be jealous, I told myself, he knows how I feel about him.

He lowered his head, nodding. "I think I am."

"Honey!" I gasped as I moved into wrap my arms around him. "You can't be serious!"

"Amber," Reed looked into my eyes. "I can't even begin to describe how I feel when I see you with him or I hear his name pass through your lips. I know you love me, I know that you don't think of him in that way but I can't help wondering if one day I'm going to be standing on the sidelines watching you walk off hand in hand with him."

"Reed!" I rolled my eyes and cringed at the thought of being anything with Devon. "No! I may have changed my opinion about him, I don't think he's the biggest jackass in the world but I'm no where close to..." my voice trailed off, I couldn't even say what he said. "There's no way I could ever see him like that and besides Janie would kill me!"

That got a smile from Reed. "Does she still deny that she cares about him?"

I nodded, "She told me that she didn't want to ever hear his name again but yet she keeps bringing him up whenever we are talking." I paused, "Devon keeps asking me about her too."

"Yeah, he asks me too."

"What are we going to do Reed?"

"Nothing," he told me. "We can't do anything Amber. They need to do what is best for them."

"No!" I cried. "You can't be serious! How can you say that? How can you let Devon marry Annette when you know that he could be as happy as you are right now, if he was with Janie? Don't you want your best friend to be happy?"

Reed pulled away from me, "Don't you think I haven't tried Amber? I've done everything I could to stop him from agreeing to this! I told him he was making a mistake but he's not listening to me, he told me I don't understand."

I moved closer to him and he took me in his arms again. "I want Devon to know the happiness that I feel whenever I hold you close but Amber I've run out of ideas and he has asked me to let him do this. He seems to think that he doesn't deserve to be happy."

"What? Why?"

"He says it's karma coming back to kick him in the ass. He seems to believe that Annette is his just reward for screwing over all the women he's ever dated."

"That's just screwed up!" I told Reed and he agreed with me.

I don't know I want to do something. I don't feel right just standing by and letting this tragedy happen.

But I promised Reed that I wouldn't butt in.

Am I crazy for wanting my best friend and Reed's best friend to be happy?

Am I crazy for thinking that they would be happy together?

How do I make this happen without butting in?

I have less than a month to figure this out.

The wedding is July 14.