Angry Words

It was about 12:30 Friday night. I was home a lot earlier than I thought I would be, I was alone - well if you didn't count the guy who was banging on my door, begging me to let him in. "Amber! Come on, let me in."

Sighing, I made my way over to the front door, unlocked the dead bolt and opened the door as far as it would open with the chain across. Reed stopped yelling the second the dead lock clicked. Now he was staring through the small opening at me. He looked upset but I was certain it couldn't have been any worst than how upset I was.

"Darling please let me in," his tone was soft and low.

I shook my head, "I don't think that's a good idea. I'm really upset right now and there's no guarantee that I won't say things that will make the situation worst. Go home Reed." I went to close the door but he grabbed hold of it and held it open.

"I'm not going home until you let me in, I don't want to start this day off this way Amber. We had planned on spending the night together, do you remember?"

"Of course I remembered. We had planned on going out with Nadine and then going back to your place to sleep so that we could get an early start on tomorrow's plans." He smiled and started to say something but I wasn't done. "Although, I don't remember there being anything in our plans about you letting the tramp hang all over you all night. Maybe I missed that part."

Reed's smiled disappeared, "Amber, I -"

"No," I cut in, holding up my hand to him. "Do you have any idea how much it hurt to see you dancing with her? To see you hold her close to you?" My voice broke, "I just want to go to bed Reed, please go home." I leaned against the wall, resting my head against it as I looked through the space at him.

"I thought she was your friend Amber, I thought it would be ok because you didn't mind when I danced with Janie before."

I shook my head, "Penny isn't and never will be my friend Reed. And even if she was, I never would've wanted you to dance so close to her. Damn it Reed!" I pushed off the wall, "Any closer and you would've been naked! But I'm sure she would've loved that!"

"I don't care what she would've loved Amber! I have no interest in her! You know I love you, i wouldn't intentionally do anything to jeopardize our relationship and you know it!" His hand was gripping the door pretty tightly, his voice was rising, he was getting more and more angry. "I don't know what your problem is today but you seem to want to fight with me. First when I told you I was tired and then when I came back here ready to go out even though I was tired and now this? What is going on Amber? What are you not telling me?"

"I told you why I was upset that you didn't want to go out! But that has nothing to do with you thinking it's ok to entertain the tramp! She has a boyfriend, you know the guy that sat in the corner giving you the evil eye all night? That's her boyfriend!"

"I know she has a boyfriend Amber! I wasn't doing anything with her! I have no intentions of ever doing anything with her either! And I don't appreciate you accusing me when I didn't do anything!"

"Well maybe you should've thought about that before you did what you did!"

Reed gave a frustrated growl and threw his hands up in the air. "I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!"

This was why I didn't want to talk to him that night, I didn't want to get into an argument with him, I wanted to wait and talk about it when I wasn't so upset. I knew we weren't getting anywhere and if we didn't stop at that moment, we would probably say things we didn't mean, I knew I was on the urge of saying some things that weren't nice at all. "Fine," I sighed.

"Fine?" He studied my face for a moment, "What does that mean?"

I shrugged, "Just fine. You didn't do anything."

"Don't do that!"

"Do what?" I frowned, "I'm not doing anything, I just said it was fine."

"Yeah, you said that alright but you didn't mean it. You still think I did something with her, you still think I liked dancing with her!"

"Well you didn't push her away," I muttered before I could stop myself.

He froze.

"Reed?"

He slowly turned on his heel and walked away from the door.

"Reed?" I closed the door so that I could undo the chain and then yanked it back open again. He didn't answer me, he just continued walking until he got to his car.

"Reed! Where are you going?"

Opening his door, he hesitated before he got in. "Maybe I'll go see if I can't track Penny down, since you think I want her so badly."

"What? No! Reed!" I started out the door as he got in his car. "Wait!" I called but he had already started his car and was tearing down the drive.

I couldn't believe what had just happened and I knew that it was all my fault. I tried to tell myself that he was just upset, that he wasn't serious. I had to believe that he wasn't serious.

I didn't get much sleep Friday night, I kept tossing and turning, when I wasn't dialing his cell phone or the house.

I managed to get about an hour of sleep in total that night.

He didn't call me back at all and I wasn't sure if he was still mad at me. But I still got up and got ready to head over to his place Saturday to set up for his party. I wasn't certain how he would greet me when I showed up at his house. I hoped that he would answer the door, I had my apology speech all prepared. I hoped that he would forgive me for being so jealous.

But he wasn't the one who answered the door when I got to his place on Saturday.